Alexander Xavier Shaw, I can’t believe I met you in the 6th grade. It’s been 8 years. May you rest in peace my love. January 9th, 2013. We’ve been best friends forever and forever longer it should have been. You’ve been trying to date me for so long and now I wish I gave you a chance, but I’m happy with who I’m with now. Your mother, Tory shaw, died of lung cancer on June 11th 2012. The morning of your mother’s awakening, June 19th, 2012, your father, Rick Shaw, was robbed, shot & killed. We’ve been through thick & thin. We’ve done stupid shit and I must admit this is the stupidest thing you’ve ever done. I hate you for always thinking you were superman. But I do miss you being here with us right now. One day we’ll meet again and that day will be perfect. I love you to death & I’ll see you soon.
"The only way to a woman’s heart is along the path of torment."
Marquis de Sade
2013 a start of another beginning
This year needs to be difference or I’m going to go insane. Work is horrid. Working for RadioShack sucks. Lol their shares aren’t worth shit because they aren’t selling anything. Allstate is a pain in the ass because they have a bunch of kids working here. Ill be 20 in 3.5 weeks, can’t wait!! I’m really considering working for HSN. $10 an hr + commission. Hell yes! And I work 40 hrs at Allstate making $10.86 an hr? Loving it! Can’t wait to go to college..
Just another Christmas that means nothing to me. Of course I still have a shitty boyfriend who cares about nothing I want. I pay the rent. I pay the bills. You’re still left without a job while every other guy is looking for someone like me. Who has a job. Has their own car. Some a little bit of ambition while you have none set. I’m unhappy. My life is on a stand still. Ill be 20 next month and the new year is in a week. Life is too short to feel this way. As I’m writing this from inside a closet you are sitting in front of my computer and tv paying attention to everyone else but me. Again. Like last night. I left my own party and apartment because of you. And I’m starting to think I shouldn’t go to your parents for Christmas. I can stay in my lonely apartment.